1. |
Make Moves
03:21
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famished with tremors on a freezing tile floor
in a carved out high rise with trifling décor.
the self-indulgent hero gets humbled and washed ashore.
then eaten for breakfast by rigid gods of love and war.
he digests and screams from the fire in their bellies
beside like-minded souls,” WE CRUMBLING LIKE COOKIES!!!”
any semblance of passion has now been used
by the appetites of giants,
then disposed of in their refuse.
make moves, make moves, make moves,
make.
make moves before they eat you and you lose.
human failure is a peculiar delicacy
for all these unseen forces that just keep fucking with me.
beings i’ve granted passage and then guaranteed
a place in my mind so i could make excuses and reject responsibility.
make moves, make moves, make moves,
make.
make moves before you shoot yourself and lose.
why do i lie to myself?
and say that it’s something else?
yiddy-yi, yiddy-yo.
yiddy-yi, yiddy-yo, yiddy-yi, yiddy-yo.
inwardly, i’ve thrown in the towel.
then taken a drag of my pet hate,
slumped back and scowled
at the holes in the ceiling,
depressions shaped by real cool
apathetic motherfuckers
sent forth from cocaine and trade school.
engage the constipation,
the dehydration
of your lifeblood,
the mania for something good,
and knockout the deviation,
your gravitation,
towards nations of quitters
who use up heavy hitters.
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2. |
Wee Pissed
03:49
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as hissy fits filter through my placid frame of mind
and the obligation to confrontation becomes revived,
for all these lowlifes who hurt my shit
and all of this hurt that makes me sick,
and oh my god,
the penalty
for f***ing me,
a friend in need,
is making fire the effigy,
a dumber, sicker, fragile breed
until i fucking burst and kick your ass
when a small chance steps out of class
and erupts from the grimness of bad intentions
into a dimly lit room to give a brutal education
to the unjust antagonists fucking up my script,
to the childhood creeps who punched me in my dick.
i swear i’m gonna roar and bust a lo*d
that will envelope
all of the natural world
as we know it.
remember all the times i just relaxed
and heard painfully from one room over
you penetrating the a**
of the glimmers of hope i just couldn’t hold on to.
look how things just stack up.
now this jacked pu**y’s had enough
so i’m taking off both gloves
and transporting your stupid face
ten feet behind you in a puddle of mud
after i smash my fist into your ugly mug
and then some dogs are gonna piss on it
as the absence of face devours your spirit.
you make me mad...
you always make me mad.
but i’ll get over it...
and not do a damn thing.
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3. |
Punch Ghosts
03:24
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but what
if i care about something
more than other somethings,
like air and black girls?
if i
were to ever lose it,
well, it’d be no secret,
i’d go to perdition to find her.
i
can’t just keep quiet
and let it lose brightness,
let it grow dimmer,
and then fade.
so i’ll
put belief in a pistol
and attend misery’s funeral
who has died at my gallant hand.
well, i,
i'm gonna love you
from a muggy backseat
on the world’s greatest street
and we’ll,
we’ll fall asleep,
one bad bitch in my arms,
head resting on heartbeats.
lovin’ r*w,
being crude,
being punk,
heartsick saps with tattoos.
falling hard,
concerning oneself and fond regards,
being rash,
a big wet kiss for the poor white trash
who feels
hungover
coming to
right beside her,
dumbstruck
but a happy fucking
dude.
i’m preparing a crusade,
wads of disorder and huge hand grenades
filled with a tendency to
strangle the pricks that would choose to wound you.
i'll make them all ghosts where they stand.
aimless, vagrant spooks and no longer man
when they
turn me into the very thing
that I swore I’d never be
when unkind cuts made me
detached like the imitation
badass
i was born to play
on a tv show
about all the good ways
to act
young,
have
fun,
drink some shit and
smoke blunts
amongst spicy, priceless situations
and our coming of age temptations
perpetrated by tons of
s*x...
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4. |
Juanita Sucks!
06:21
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i’ve aroused this sight
too many times before.
girl walks out
and i do not cry out for
her to survive
a few more nights with me.
i stand there waiting,
loaded, lucidly.
oh, when i kissed her
from the divinity of a garage
or entwined in a closet
at a wedding, i think it’s her moms.
lakeside and hesitant,
the place she pioneered lust.
watching Children of the Corn,
the first time i had guts.
where have they gone?
you make all gone.
i got callous,” fuck it,”
rigged like the soulless.
uninspired feelings
and no real incentive for this.
girl is the marvel,
makes me lose my marbles.
makes me daisy chain my nuts
to tender, bitchy witch hunts.
my love is pronto Squanto
like misinformed tornados.
pull apart the anima
upon erotic, filthy floor shows.
i am not the hater
nor the avenging player
but when “heartfelt” takes a dive,
it doesn’t catch me by surprise.
i see you in the quad
with a guy who looks like me
and babe, you must be blind
‘cos you can’t see
that i probably would come back.
plus, that herb is fucking whack.
i’m a big fat dope sack
with a man-root stirring heart attacks.
i’m contradicting myself.
let me take off my belt.
juanita sucks...
i say,” juanita sucks.”
juanita sucks...
i say,” juanita sucks.”
but i wouldn’t mind…
if juanita stayed.
i think that’d be fine.
i’m lying defined
by hedonistic land mines.
“hello, pleased to meet you.
most folks call me
the fucking punch line.”
oh, juanita!
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5. |
Fudge Together
03:04
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enter stage right.
context: somewhere at night.
anyway, she’s in sight
and by design, i’m uptight
(but don't do that)
i can’t just discipline what forges my complexion.
(that just sounds weak)
she’ll be savvy to all my goddamn imperfections.
(she doesn't know you)
her capacity to smell my pettiness has been honed.
(what does that mean?)
alright, cue
the rhythm
section,
smell
my breath,
and take
my phone.
(yo! drum and bass)
let’s fudge together our infernal regions!
i debut my joke about jews
but some lush bitches illegibly shout a tune,
keeping the punch line from even kind of breaking through
into her awareness of my wittiness misconstrued
as some unwarranted confession
of a jewish heritage that isn’t my own.
well, I can’t talk to women.
shit, I thought you were supposed to drink cologne.
tell
me how to
be the epitome
of the artificial playboy
who will never really enjoy
the marrow of your being
or anything you find freeing.
the synthetic lady-killer
who calls his d**k “god’s driller”.
unloads it in your face,
returning to his state of grace.
or the plastic rad kid,
the one who does what dad did.
“i’m a product of my environment.
that’s why i put weird drugs in your drink.”
to the unnatural phonies
who get turned up with their cronies.
then beat the fuck from beauty,
i’m just a lover, not a pu**y.
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6. |
Fingerprints
02:47
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so can i see you girl, tonight?
can you make me scream tonight?
can i be your slave tonight?
can you use me up tonight?
i’ll pick you up at 8,
i’ll pick you up,
i’ll pick you up, up, up, up.
my pupils dilate,
i’m losing weight,
i get irate and bump them
into my deranged fucking snout.
owww...
la-la-la, la-la-la-la...
the rays of a hungry sunup gashes the sky
like lighthouses fracturing my delirious high.
i’m perpetual, i’m static, the most cheerless guy,
fixed on a roof, my intentions just seem misapplied.
fingerprints on my shirt, i wish i could fucking sniff them.
wanna go into a coma but my body won’t listen.
wanna mislead the girl i rolled with in four cheap motels
so her body
can save me
as the headaches swell.
holy hell!
i’m getting torn up
by melancholia’s
monstrous, gloomy c**k.
my unsound mind
is flipping out
and this drowsy trance
is no longer profound.
it’s bull...
shit.
i’ll pick you up.
we’ll get the stuff.
we’ll use it up.
this shit is nuts.
i’ll
pick you up...
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7. |
Requiem
03:36
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we’ll see the requiem
that’s rambling on and on
for all our pals who’ve gone
the path of decomposition.
and it smells to high heaven,
a place we’ve never went
but one day, we’ll waft up there
when our shits in total disrepair.
we won’t know anyone.
they’ll all be different.
but i’ll be like you,
apathy takes two.
the burial was blue
in relation to
the loss of the light of our lives,
an objection as to who survives.
and tend to my heart, okay?
make sure it doesn’t break
‘cos i can’t just pump these brakes,
there may be some moves to make.
but now I’m getting bored,
steps forward must go ignored
and i’m not going slow,
there will be a time to grow.
"now baby, is that true?
now baby, is that true?
stumbling is what you do.
you ain’t ever gonna break on through.
you hesitating.
the malefactor is escaping,
so throw the book at that motherfucker
or pull the goddamn trigger, you infant."
the escaped con is in my sights,
the malicious waste who killed my wife.
i nailed his ass twenty years ago,
now that getting even is
starting to show
but he doesn’t know
that my counterblow,
my fucking Van Gogh
is sown in his soul
that shitty hole,
my baby unborn
is unrecognizable.
but
i stole
two useful decades,
time he would spend
killing more babes
and interchanged it with
bad dicks and big shivs.
i made his existence
a deflowered abyss.
this is his requiem...
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8. |
Wide Open Spaces
04:02
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i was begging,” can you let me out?”`
from the confines of a seemingly cozy house.
but now it’s masked with insult and blood
rushing from the throat of their youngest son.
i concoct schemes of liberation
due to my unbecoming mutation
into an epidemic, a fumbling piece of shit,
and i’d like to spare them the trouble of raising it
but i don’t really have a home.
well, there is this place
though its kinda prone
to scratching and smashing
my self worth.
once my bedroom,
now a brain-dead pervert.
so
i get in the habit of
spaced-out relaxation
and becoming fat and drunk and happy
with the loafing situation.
the joy of pleasantly having
zero direction,
the sort of idleness that is
cooked to perfection.
i get turned on by wide-open spaces,
the privilege to move, the headroom erases.
climbing the walls of a handmade house of correction
and i sense that this could be swaggers resurrection.
maybe we can go
to the City with a Fighting Chance
beside gypsies widowed
by a lead singers romance
who made tender melodies
from sheer monstrosity
but then lost her voice
and her
immortality.
but now
it is wide open.
come with me.
i think i’m single again.
i
was far away
but now I’ve reexamined
who i was,
the shit i took for granted.
i
am now
ready, willing and able
to bust the sloth
through a motherfucking table.
and
stand over
its rickety, aged body,
slamming my foot
into the accused party.
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9. |
La Bayadere
04:45
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“what is this riot for?”
i think to myself
as fans incite grace across
the stage.
your hand in his.
i’m 4th Row
minding someone who has changed.
you look at him
like you did at me.
is he aware
that I watch
from my seat
‘cos honestly, this ain’t okay.
i’m just sitting,
handcuffed in a chair,
buttoned up
and fenced in by
all your friends
who don’t know it fucking hurts
to watch you
be consumed
by someone who thinks that
he’s yours.
but you’re mine
and this is perdition.
wait, now his hand is stroking
yours...
i hate
the way
you dance
with him...
with him...
why
won’t
you
dance
with
me?
why?
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10. |
Bwa-Ha-Ha, Cowardice
04:32
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pop that fucking booty
like the whole world say you s’posed to.
set it on my d**k
because I know you fucking want to.
move it up and down
till it starts going to my head
that every bad bitch looking
wants to get her pu**y fed
by white sin,
this kid,
the motherfucking kingpin.
girl is getting tougher on my shit,
i’m breaking her in,
till the walls cave in,
till her house falls down.
till we’re lying in the rubble,
bodies naked on the ground.
she died happy.
“what’s that?”
she weren’t scared,
mark my motherfucking words,”
she died happy.”
“that so?”
everyone can see it,
sitting pretty, grinning blood-soaked.
but now
i feel
hatred
spouting
from the
dumb fuck
who’s been
staring
at you
for an
artless amount
of time,
his patience
is running dry.
he puts
on his
depraved
disguise,
snide but
bold,
riches
are implied.
the second self
of my
cowardice.
the liberator
of a little bitch.
my criminal
phantom limb
dismounts
a majestic
dolphin
and inquires
with intention,”
where are
your false
expectations?”
i cast
a look
at a
divine being,
she makes
a living
babysitting
and always bastardizing
the retarded
flame
undying.
he sets
in motion
a strike.
hawklike,
charming,
business
ignites.
she might
be toppling
fast.
the front
has now
been surpassed.
“well, i don’t know
if i can hang out after the show,”
and she starts strolling away
so he starts annunciating
his prowess and reputation,
both kind of nonexistent.
he’s never been in the spotlight,
maybe just once or twice,
small but inspired crowds.
“oooh-la-la,
did you say you opened for
atlas sound?”
“oh yeah, i believe i did,”
i talk good
and am erect on
solid ground
‘cos tonight
is proving to be fearless
and the
other way around.
i’m upsetting
the hang-ups
with fetching, hunky
animal sounds.
bwa-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha...
("pop that booty" refrain)
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11. |
Chimera
05:50
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‘cos i see you hustling down the street,
you could never be discreet
and that is
a dead end,
so you’re gonna have to turn around
and
come back through my part of town
and naturally
descend
into second nature,
our achilles heel,
a
rookie culture of futile feels
from tragic
and tireless
boys and girls who hunt for love
on
the never ending stretch of road
where i
just shot
your boyfriend.
now i realize
that murders rude
as i gaze at
an exit wound,
wielding a
smoking gun
that i probably should
go get rid of
but i am
the chimera
and it looks like
i spit mad fire
born from
self-interest,
the creature
egotistical and blistered.
i see you up on the horizon,
the homecoming is unsurprising.
don’t defend
that corpse.
she begins getting closer to me
and
i can feel the temperature rising.
the girls up
in smoke.
i haul ass to
meet her halfway,
defying the middle of the fray
shrouded
by riots.
aliens from the weeds move in,
they’re
here to shame salvation today.
“but you shot her boyfriend!”
“that’s not important.”
“its sorta vital.”
“i’m fighting
for the
world fucking title
‘cos if i lose this,
that’ll be it.
i’ll get piss drunk
and reminisce
about the gilded age,
a woman who just
got engaged,
my life will get
devastated by inhumane tidal
waves...
washing me away.”
found drowned yesterday.
i wonder what he’d say
from his watery grave,
i wonder if he prayed,"
let her find me,
find me in the fray"?
so i’ll be chimera,
your running mascara.
i’ll start being a dick,
the ultimate conjuring trick.
i’ll be chimera.
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12. |
Ego Death
05:13
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but my ego is a high school bomb threat,
fiction.
i just wanna stay at home
and stand around with dereliction.
criminal negligence,
little angel with two parents
but he hasn’t learned shit,
a world-weary tradition.
i’m not gonna blow it up.
i just wanted to sleep
and have dreams about
bare-skinned girls
soaring over my house,
i get scooped up, they show me
heaven, unadorned beauty in their curves.
they start taking off my clothes,
my drive goes wild.
but then i ascend
and their kindness
ends.
i’m the onliest
watching porn again.
the night she cleared out,
i was catching my breath,
charging that sweet bitch
with my ego death.
i’m self-conscious and my hunger’s low
but i’ll eat six cheeseburgers with root beer floats
and a fistful of transparent rejection!
EGO DEATH!
it’s pulling in
our driveway,
shit.
meal plans,
food stamps,
bittersweet starvation cramps.
parking tickets,
hissy fits
and non-moving violation champs.
paycheck,
microscopic,
misspend it on weird
philanthropic
endeavors to involuntarily nourish
the fiends,
the illness,
the chronic,
the demonic,
the vile,
the smother,
the mundane seldom lover
who makes you bend over backwards,
leaving no stone unturned
for a chance at some glassy-eyed articulation of
romance!
i’ll try
to change...
but ego
will stay the same.
ego…
EGO DEATH!
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13. |
Robotic
04:48
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there we are,
stoned in the kitchen.
a time
to dishonor herself
‘cos he’s gone away,
never to be seen again.
a crime of passion
and misguided actions
always result in my ass getting l**d.
i'm not that proud
when she is robotic,
repeating herself in hopes that he
slips from her memory
but the battle’s uphill
‘cos I do not feel
like a man she could love
and i get disposed of
as these arms fall flat
when she arrives at
the bulletproof decision
that no one can replace him.
and i know
that the mood has changed
and i feel
my life ain’t the same.
i can’t labor
like i could
and i know that
that maybe i should.
we turned it on.
our bodies
tempt fortune.
i touch you,
night and day.
where men of mettle
go l**p,
i feel our love
fleeting
and i know it stings.
and i believe that
if we just don’t
admit we failed,
we would never,
ever die,
you know?
it's too late, i tried.
instinct
like a robot…
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